Monday, October 06, 2008

Emotional Times...

Well, my birthday was yesterday and it was a very nice day. I started out by going to Jazzercise, then I went to Whole Foods for a PomPassion smoothie. I found a neat international Sesame Street CD for my children and some interesting foods to try. I came home and my in-laws called to wish me a happy day. While I was on the phone with them my parents and nephews came over with a cake and presents to surprise me. After the family party Dan took me to Farrelli's Cinema Supper Club to see "Casablanca". I have never seen it before and overall thought it was an interesting movie (I did throw up in my mouth a little when Ingrid Bergman told Humphrey Bogart, "I can't think right now, you have to think for both of us"). ;) Anyway, I had a very pleasant day.

But today... I just had to call our China agency to ask about the rumored increase in orphanage fees from $3,000 to $5,000. I visited with our agency recently in Colorado and the director told me he thought after the Olympics the fees would increase and that would lead to a stabilization and ultimate decrease in wait times. I have not seen any evidence of that so I wanted to find out the status.

Well, while I was talking to my "partner in waiting" I unexpectedly broke down crying. I am just so sad that our wait is growing every month. I don't understand how we can be asked to wait for an unknown length of time. We are AGING! Of course the question is "Who is asking this of you?" and the answer is we are asking this of ourselves to fulfill our dream of parenting an orphan from China.

The Guatemala adoption has put us through the wringer and we feel raw and troubled. I'll never understand why our journeys have been so challenging and trying. Of course I am so happy our son will be home soon, but it does not fill the void in my heart from not having my daughter here.

Thursday, October 02, 2008


Man on Wire

I was relaxing in my hotel room last night after watching "Pushing Daisies" (my new Hollywood beau is Lee Pace - LOVE HIM!), and felt like watching a movie. I was THRILLED to see "Man on Wire" was on the menu. I missed it when it played in Arizona and have been wanting to see it for awhile.

May I just say, I LOVED this movie! It was worth the $15 I paid to watch! It was exciting, inspiring, touching, thrilling and preposterous at times. It really reinforced my belief in one of my favorite quotes of all time:

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams!
Live the life you've imagined".
- Thoreau

I am going confidently in the direction of my dreams...
  • I am moving forward with real estate investing despite the frightening market conditions and poor economic and employment outlook
  • I am remaining committed to bringing home both of my children from around the world
  • I am working with my husband to improve our marriage and improve our lives

My prayer is all of my loved ones find the strength and inspiration they need to move towards their dreams too, each day of their lives.